Today, I am in an identity crisis led by conflicting, contradicting and opposing ideologies. I feel like a teenager choosing to either fight or join the mean girls club in high school. I am as divided as Korea, but without the borders, war threats, or much international intervention. Democracy and socialism are fighting to win my heart. But, who’s stronger? Who’s better? Both sides blame each other for the critical situation we are in today. The high levels of insecurity, assaults, food shortages are allegedly no one’s fault. I am half deaf, half blind, half mute; I’m sometimes harassed and sometimes venerated.  I am deeply confused by the media, political discourse, and rival realities. I cannot longer distinguish between authoritarianism and revolution or even decide between red and blue, as they’ve become accomplices of an ideology; they are no longer colors.